This is heartbreaking. As a person who has suffered and still is suffering from depression I can surely say it made me stop and watch this for such a long time. Why should anyone feel sorry for “having” depression? You don’t have depression first of all. Depression “has” you in some kinda weird way. And it’s never your fault. Never and in no fucking way. Don’t be sorry. Don’t let anyone make you apologize for feeling this way. Nobody wants depression. Nobody needs it. Nobody. With no exception. Don’t ever ever apologize.
Trying to get some new music to listen to, any suggestions?
Lights, Lindsey Stirling, Owl City, John Mayer, and Imagine Dragons. That’s about all I listen to…
Might I also add on Panic!At The Disco?
Or maybe perhaps Regina Spektor, Lily Allen, or Kate Nash
Let Me Drown: I Desperately Want To Throw My Arms Around You & Hold You Close. I... →
I Desperately Want To Throw My Arms Around You & Hold You Close. I Want To Kiss Your Lips.Bite Them Too. And Part Them With My Tongue & Taste You Again. I Want To Breathe You In. You Are My Drug. And When We Get To Be Alone I Want To Cuddle Up Into You & Feel Your Arms Hold Me Tight. I Want To…
Silence tells a lot of tales
It Is such a big thing now-a-days
It is also My preference instead of gossiping
This gossiping seems to cause many to turn to Suicide
Most only leave a tiny Note in their own personal nightmares.
Words on a sheet of paper
The meaning Unknown
If you look real hard you can see
That they Are Important
I think I’m actually going to do this in my room
I really Love this idea
:)Getting to sleep in for 10 more minutes this morning
Getting to hold my love this morning
He didn’t get suspended or worse expelled
I got to drink my Mountain Dew for the morning:) Mmm caffeine addict right here!
I got to feel his hands softly caress meI got to watch him eat this morning
he is still alive
Open Your Eyes (79/365)
It is so sad that most of the time it does have to get that bad…
- “but he/she was drunk”
-“it was the alcohol’s fault”
-“he/she was abused as a kid, so it’s not his/her fault, he/she was forced to do it”
-“you made him/her do it”
-“you purposely pressed his/her buttons and made him/her do it”
-“you dressed appealing”
-“you flaunted yourself”
-“that’s not that bad, some kids have it worse”
One day
Far away
Or maybe closer
I’ll watch the pretty red
Gush from my body
Watch my skin
Open up
Let the infection out
Let the caged demon inside of me
Come out and play
Maybe just for a day
Maybe a week
Maybe a lot longer even than I may think
This was the last time that my dad had hurt me.
It wasn’t too bad.
It was just odd.
He’s usually drunk when he’s like that.
But he grabbed me real hard.
I guess I made him angry.
He didn’t leave a mark this time
It just hurt some
But no worries
I numbed out
I went away for a bit
I feel like I must be really fucked up because I wish that I could be back living with my parents…
…even if the cost of living there is being raped and hit and verbally attacked all the time…
I feel like no one listens. No one hears me. It’s like my mouth is not moving. Like it doesn’t exist. But then if this were true, would no one even then take the time to look me in the eyes and ask me if I’m happy now?
You pass by me in the hallways
You walk thru me in the house
How do you not see the destruction?
The pain?
The blood?
The cuts?
The scars?
Am I really invisible?
And they thought I was crazy…
This is my Grandma. She is my guardian and has been for a year or so now. I should be oh so grateful. But sometimes…. I wish she would have just left me at home with my parents so I could have finished myself off
Sometimes I wish that she hadn’t taken guardianship of me.
We don’t get along. We just don’t. She’s not very nice. She calls me manipulative and says I’m always trying to control her. And one time she was mad and she told me to just go cut myself. Ever since then I just ask myself why I should care what she says… Like for real.?
i sit here in class
one hand to type with
one hand to cut with
everyone is so quiet
no one has a clue
lucky me
destroy myself
since no one is really watching
